To say it's been a wild year would be an understatement! My New Years Eve last year was spent recovering from jaw surgery, and that basically set the tone for the year - more hospital stays in 2018 than 2015-2017. I battled DRESS Syndrome which was caused by one of my Trigeminal Neuralgia meds. I had liver failure. Dislocated Ribs and Knees. Surgery to remove a ruptured Fallopian Tube. Through all the adversity, there was so much to be thankful for, too! I really spent my "we

Love. Marriage. Kids. Career. The American Dream, right? But at what cost? From the outside, I have it all. But I tend to keep my fence built high, so it's rare people see inside. Having it all - it's great. Having it all is also constant give and take, compromise, and work. Couple all of that with a body that tries to kill you every day, and having it all doesn't seem so great anymore. I can't complain about my life - but sometimes it's hard to see everything I have when I

I totally understand why those with Autoimmune Diseases and Chronic Illnesses have multiple writers on their websites/blogs/etc. It’s hard to maintain when you have to shut down all unnecessary parts of your life to swing into survival mode! This Wisconsin Spring/Summer has been pretty brutal on my body. Between suffering through being a human barometer and a massive project coming to a head at work, keeping my toddler alive and keeping myself alive have taken precedence ove

When you’re chronically ill, staying alive is – quite literally – a full-time job. There’s no pay, no benefits, no vacation time, but nonetheless it is a thankless full-time job. When you’re a parent, keeping a child alive and thriving is – quite literally – a full-time job. There’s no pay, no benefits, no vacation time, but nonetheless it is a thankless full-time job. With all the time and energy we are forced to dedicate to one or both things, how on earth is anything outsi

Love. Relationships. Marriage. Like, seriously, how many spoons do people think we have to deal with all THAT? For real though, these things aren’t easy for anybody. They take work. Commitment. Time. Respect. And that’s just the “in health” part. Throw in some “in sickness” and you’ve entered another realm. Throw in some chronic “in sickness” and you (and your partner) might feel like you need an entirely new map to navigate through. My relationship is no different. The truth

What is the point? What is the point of using up so many spoons on “good” days when the bad days are so bad that they put you back at the starting line? What is the point of waking up at the crack of dawn to push yourself through something when your painsomnia kept you up all night? What is the point of going to the park with your kid when all you can do is sit and watch – you can’t even push her on the swing? What is the point? What is the point of trying to work – trying t

Short on time? Don’t think you can fit in a lifting session in 30 minutes or less? Although you may not be able to get as many lifts in or as heavy lifts in, I still think that, for me anyway, some lifting is better than none at all. There are many weeks where my morning workouts just don’t happen. I get very poor sleep due to the painsomnia and med reactions associated with my illnesses. It’s not uncommon for me to get 2-3 hours of actual sleep a night and suffer through

Let’s talk Self-Care! When you have a chronic condition, sometimes it’s hard to really live beyond survival mode. Anything that might take an extra spoon or two when you are rationing them just to survive can sometimes seem not worth it. I lived this way for a long time until realizing that sometimes investing those spoons into self-care could actually help me have more spoons later on. But how to do this, when some days it seems impossible? Here’s some of my favorite, sp

I was fortunate enough to be asked to share my story of how fitness has effected my life for Strong in Body, Strong in Mind for a story series they are doing. I would love if you all took a minute to check it out over there. I've never really shared as in-depth as I did for this, and I think that this page does some really great work so it was an honor to share with them. Check it out, check the page out, and take a look at all they have to offer! #weightlifting #spoonie #e

I have been sick for so long now, that I have gotten used to it – the doctors appointments, the blood draws. My aim when it comes to peeing in a cup for labs is pretty impressive. I can swallow 15 pills in one gulp. I can spot a “good” pillow from across the store. Sick has become my “normal”. So much so, that when the “good” days come along, sometimes I’m actually intimidated by them. I’ve spent many good days lying in bed hiding from the world under the covers, becaus